^^Toqether Just Remember^^

^^Toqether Just Remember^^
eRa / Ira / aInI

24 June 2011

About my conflict prob wif family n bf...

Hi babe!!! It have been long time i nvr update tis blogger.. hehe(: anw, how r u ?? lamer sey tk jumpa.. hope dpt jumpa krg soon k.. OK tis is how my story goes... Onces upon a time... Chey! fake.. haha okok.. serious !
Smlm i went outing wif my Sec sch fren. pergi sentosa & vivo.. we start to meet up aftr zohor.. masa tu my 1st kak not @ home tat morning.. only my 2nd kak & nenek @ home.. i told them im going to sentosa dgn kwn.. then my kak ckp dh blg ibu blum? i said blum.. then i just go.. yg pergi pulak 3 pempuan. yg lain lelaki.. coz last mins yg ade cnt make it.. so we just carry on wif the plan.. we reach sentosa ard 3 plus.. coz the journey took abt 1hr plus... dh smpi, teros kiteorg mkn pat foodcourt.. then we went straight to sentosa.. biler dh smpi sana bdk lelaki semua mandi . yg pempuan kite,ddk, mkn, took photo.. n spent time smua la.. coz it have been a yrs kite tk jumpa.. half way pat sentosa zul msg me.. u kat ane? dh pukul brape tk tahu nk alik ? i said... jap lagy.. aru je smpi.. then actually dier mrh me. coz i degil tk nk alik awal.. he told me tis time he give me chances to go bck late.. ape ape terjadi tanggung sendiri.. i said ok.. ade satu part ni amin ask me to jaga brg dier.. gelang tangan n cincin dier la.. i just jaga je.. tlg dier.. but the rest of the bag pun i jaga.. then zulaika tgk time dh pukul 5 plus.. going to 6.. she told me dier nk gy vivo window shop jap .. then i just follow her.. & tell yg lain pape jumpa pat vivo.. dh smpi vivo ard 6 plus.. dh window shop smua.. bla bla ard 7 plus.. i ask her temankn me gy tempat keje zul. Armani exchage.. kdi yg dier keje skrg.. when i step inside the shop.. i dgn ika tgk2 baju smua.. baju sana semua mahal2 giler.. n kebetulan zul pat dlm changing room tgh lipat aju smua.. she ask me to try out 1 of the cloths. step mcm nk try.. tpi she ask me to bbual dgn zul ... coz i told him i miss zul :( so, she give me tis chances.. then i said. tk nk uh! nnt manager marah.. n further more baju sana mahal.. aku dh la tk kaya sngt nk beli brg tu smua.. so she just diam aje.. all the way.. got tis moment zul appear beside me. i was damn shock! haha:) he said yes, mamam cn i help u ? pikirkn siape sey.. haha... then bbual dgn zul jap.. i said,im sorry tk dgr ckp dier.. n i said i miss him alot. n i ask him kul rape u alik keje ? he said closing ard 9 plus.. then i told him tat i want to go bck samer2 dgn dier.. he said ok. anythg tunggu luar kdi dier.. then zulaika masa tu gtg dulu.. coz she's fighting wif her mum masa nk keluar rumah.. so she dont wanna things to get wrost. she went back dulu.. then all in suddent i teringt alik.. alamk brg amin i forget to pass him bck.. then i quickly call amin.,. suruh meet me dulu smblm dier nk tgk wayang wif his frens.. then i waited for them abt half an hr aru smpi .. but while waiting drg. i wen to toilet.. betul kn tudung .. hehe :) biler dgr dh smpi .. masa tu i tgh ddk pat kerusi.. & beside me was empty seat.. then all in sudden amin seat beside me.. n the rest of my fren main pandi masuk kdi armani exchange.. mcm mapek sey tinggal kn amin dgn me sorang pat luar.. masa tu amin bbual dgn me.. but i didnt realise tat zul ternmpk i berbual mesra dgn amin.. aku cuma just anggap ami sbgi kwn. berbual pun gitu gitu aje.. he was all the way mrh pat me without i realise it.. biler drg dh alik smua.. zul dh habis closing .. teros aku dgn dier naik bus 963 to wdlnds interchange.. masa perjalanan tu.. zul lecture me.. i was like damn tired .. the whole day pat sentosa.. tpi wat to do terpakasa kena layan .. he said bhy, cn i ask u smthg ? yg ddk sebelah u tdi kwn u eh ? i said yes. why ? tkde la.. i cuma nk nasihat kn u .. u noe tat u have hurt me. i said why? terkejot la.. he said masa tgh closing tangan dier tgh rasa rengan aje mcm nk fight dgn amin.. i said knpe ?? yela .. dier ddk dkt dgn u make me feel jealous.. i said, chill la u dier cuma kn i .. n dulu he's my ex-boy.. he said i dh agak punya mesti slh satu ex-boy u ... then he said u tahu tk one of ur fren stare at me atas bwh.. he was like wth ! aku ade hutang kau duit ke? then he stare back at my fren.. he refering to my kwn iman.. kalau krg kenal.. iman tu dier memang pergai tk grow up till now. peragai mcm sial. suka stare org with no reasons.. i said sabah je la u.. dier memang gitu peragai masih adik adik.. zul ckp memang! bkn adik adik . masih bdk mentah lagi.. haha.. ok.. then zul ckp u tahu kn u dh ade matair n kenape u buat benda yg i tk suka.. i was like senyap all the way..  he said. klau nk cari kwn biar yg baik baik.. tkmua kwn yg nk step2 matrep.. zul all the way bbual yg dier tk suka kwn aku... i diam aje.. at tis point dier ckp if u wanna the best for our r/s u nk kena tahu DO & DONT do things tat he like/dislike.. eg DO: nk kena pndi amik hati dier.. eg DONT : tkmu cnt dgn my ex & i dont flirt ard.. i said.. bhy, i tkde niat pun nk luka kn hati u .. i jsut treated my ex smua sbgi kwn tk lebih drpd tu.. he said ye.. i tahu.. tpi utk ur info i klau dh break up dgn ex-gf i . i tk pernah keluar as a group mcm u.. all the way he lecture me.. until i felt im guilty.. n one thing tat he dont like .. when i went bck home late. his limit for me is before maghrib smpi rumah.. n he said for the sake of ur own good he will control me alik before maghrib.. n cari kwn yg btl.. then all in sudden i cry....... all the way.. i said im sorry dear... i dh sakit kn hati u.. he said.. dh lah syg.. tkmu nangis la... i maafkn u... mcm ane masalah u mcm gunung i akan tetap maafkn u... hmmmmm...... i reach home ard 11 pm.. mummy i mrh asal alik mlm ?i said keluar dgn sec frens..  n she didnt trust me i keluar dgn sec frens... i said kalau tk caya call zulaika la.. he just diam aje... haissss... she said klau peragai kau mcm ni aku hantar kau pat rumah bukit timah situ (girls home) i was damn hurt! n she said hari raya tis yr dier tk bgi my kwn smua come to my house...i was like. wth?? im saying the truth! nk ckp jujur slh tk ckp jujur pun slh.. argh!!! then my mum pikir i bwk zul gy sentosa skali. i said ibu,why shld i bring my bf went tat is my sec sch outing?? she was senyap aje hmmm :( at last biler i tk tahan lagi i just walk away,keluar kn tilam n bantal n i cover my face n cry as much as i cn all day nite.. :'(  n the nxt day zul post a msg @ my fb he said  I tot you already remember the 'do' n 'dont' ??..bt you r still doing the 'dont'..i tot you know what i dont like..y you still doing it?? tk terang ke kate2 i pat you?? that is to jage2 who you r mixing with.. bt i dont think you bother to remember those thing.. let me make things clear to you.. STAY AWAY FROM PEOPLE YANG I TK SUKE.. paham??jgn gatal nk comment2 smue pat org2 yg i tk suke.. paham?? you mmg tk paham perasaan i.. susa sgt ke nk uat those things? huh?? buat la apape yg you nk asl kn you bahagie.. Then i reply syg.... ape yg u mapek kn ni... sejak biler pulak i mengatal comment pulak??? who r u refering to now.. tell me ???! hmmmmm :(:( yelah smua i yg kena..... :'(:'( suka hati u la bhy... aku mcm lost tau dier ckp aku comment org yg dier tk suke???!!! geram sey!!=.=  hmmmmm.... I just dont wanna fight wif him please. coz, i really love him alot... syg kenape u nk mrh2 ni smua? kite blh jumpa ddk & bbual cari baik2 kn utk selesai kn masalah? hmm i dont noe la babe... first thing i fed-up family i control i .padahal tgh holiday sey dh bis exam!!! ape lagy yg drg nk stop aku ??  & now a days drg tk agy aku freedom n they dont trust me.. im sad & really sad..... krg lain la.. at least ur parents understand teenagers life. but both my parent opp! :'( :( ni pun aku the hold day ddk rumah.. my 1st kak jaga i. she didnt allowed me to go out. even smlm ptg yg krg nk jumpa i told my 1st kak nk jumpa aini & ira.. i nk bagi alik game sims3 pat aini.. she said tkde2 aku ikot sklai klau nk jumpa drg.. i was like.. dh uh tkpe nxt time aje aku jumpa krg... hmmmmm.... skrg zul mrh aku. family aku tk bgi aku freedom.. what shld i do babe?? need help here !!!!! ;''(

Regards
era :(

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